Tuesday, August 28, 2007

I don't know what to say...

I have a multitude of thoughts going through my head right now and I'm not sure where to begin.

First, I want to say that my costochondritis is still here and may not go away until I work it out through exercise. My doctor didn't seem real concerned.

Secondly, I'm trying to find the words to say my next thought without be too vague, yet not super descriptive. Here goes...

I found a lump in that upper girl region on my body. My doctor verified it today and referred me to a specialist. They are supposed to call me within a few weeks. I am extremely scared, anxious, angry and so much more right now. My doctor tells me there is a 90% chance that it is just a cyst that needs to be drained and if it had been a little bigger he would have done it himself (with a needle... oh... yay). The nurse was trying to be a comfort and told me that "we all have them." I'm not sure if that was comforting or just made me think if we all have them how come it's such a big deal. I'm not sure what to feel right now. I know that God is taking me through this time for a reason, but I still want to know why.
So, for now I just wait and pray and wait and pray until I am given more answers.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

keep us updated nicole - we love you guys and are praying for you.